It’s scary how much Kyler is already like me. I knew going into parenthood that our kids would inherit more than just our eyes, I just didn’t realize I would see the personality stuff so soon. Kyler is incredibly stubborn, recklessly curious, highly energetic, and prefers being awake. It’s frightening.
On the one hand, knowing that Kyler’s personality is so similar to mine makes me feel like I will have the upper hand when he gets into his teenage/difficult years. On the other hand, there is a certain anxiousness that comes with our similarities. I know the temptations and pitfalls that await him, how his personality will affect the ways he perceives the world, and all the other hardships that he will face. I know that even if I try to warn him, since he’s so much like me, he will probably ignore it so he can learn on his own.
Parenting myself, (my mini-me), is going to be hard, and I think that all parents will face this anxiousness. With all that said, I was reminded once again that parenting is not stepping into a known and predictable situation. It is a step of faith, knowing that, just like me, God has a plan and is going to work with our kids, their personalities, good and bad.
So, as I observe myself in my son, I am trying to observe God’s grace in my life and remember that I’m who I am because of his grace, not the stubbornness passed down through generations of Kimmels before me.